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Another day at work.... I am awfully tired, didn't get much sleep last night, or today actually.... went to bed at 5:30 AM, stayed up reading till 6:30, slept for 3 hours and woke up at 9:30, got dressed then went to work........

So far, my job is quite interesting, I got to do a looooooot of things, including loads of paper work which reminds me why I simply love my pc........ I did some nice work, they are all pretty satisfied now, hope it lasts till I am done!!

It's a completely different summer this year, instead of staying in bed all day, watching tv or sitting to the laptop all night, I am on a very tight schedule, trying to do anything for fun but so far I haven't been very lucky!!!

I got to go to the computer malls, was looking for a new HDD, I was totally out of space, I found some portables but they are pretty expensive for my budget so I got a normal 120GB internal laptop HDD and a cover, now I have a nice free 120GB connected through USB for USD85!

It's an amazing feeling to look at the status bar and see all this white space waiting to be filled!

As a treat, I got a copy of Vista, installed it and I am now using it.... Of course I had some stupid time retrieving my bookmarks and offline contents etc. because I wanted to put a clean copy, no upgrading..... It's worth it after all!

I got the new Harry Potter too... Everyone who dares to say it's for kids is looking for a fight with me, this is no child's book or at least not only for children! Didn't read much of it yet, only about 115 pages, I am reading another book with it and again, it's the lack of time!

Emotionally, it's all shit right now, I am confused and I can't comprehend a lot of the stuff going around me.... It's like a death trap, whenever I think I am done, I survived, I am sucked back into troubles!!! I want to scream MERCYYYYYYYYYYYY some times..... But as everything else, it will calm down again in a while, and it will get even worse for the millionth time.... What can we say, it's life, and I am living it to the bone!

I don't know when I'll be able to write again, will try to go out soon and write about it but till then, I have to go do some work "I am on my coffee break" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A new job!

Not much going on the last few days, the exams are still there, they were okay, not my usual perfect but okay.... I have an oral exam in about 8 hours but I can't get myself out of bed to grab a book, I am bored and tired.

Things are calm in here, specially in my head... The usual rage and anger and complicated passionate feelings are withdrawing.... It feels like my head was inside a giant mixer with a thousand hand pushing the "ON" button, but one by one, they turned off the mixer to leave me at the bottom of it, still got some headache from the spinning but other than that, the silence is incredibly comforting... I need this time out to retain my "sanity", get back on track and hopefully gain back the weight I lost... I can say that I am happy, remembering things from the last year is not as painful as it was in the previous couple of months... I am glad I managed to cope with the changes around me, the changes in my head....



On another matter, my vacation should start by the 22nd of this month, I pretty much can't wait because this has been one hell of a school year... I will be a forth year med student, quite a change since I was that little cheerful energetic girl back at high school but it is expected, nothing stays the same, we are always changing...

A while ago I raised the subject with my parents, I will be working this summer, for a million reasons starting from not wanting to stay home sleeping all day and sitting on my laptop all night till I got some backache of a 90 year old man working in mining , to seeking a fraction of financial Independence...
So as I said, I talked to the old folks about it and my father immediately said that he wants me to work for him"he has an imp. & exp. company and another software, web designing one", I agreed because I know that he is in desperate need for an assistant and I happen to know most of what it takes, having worked for him before on part time bases.

I am not really comfortable with the situation, working for my father, specially when my younger brother will be training there too to prepare himself for entering the faculty of engineering and the whole business.

I still don't know how it is going to be, so I guess the only thing I have to do is to give it a try, a couple of weeks won't harm, to see how it will end up like... If it doesn't work out, good thing I already made it clear to them that I will leave and look for a job anywhere else for I won't accept wasting the whole summer doing something I am not satisfied with...

There is nothing else to do now, I'll just wait and see... But for now, I'd better get out of bed and go study for a while till I leave for the exam!